Tuesday, February 8, 2011


After much consideration (and stress) Dallin and I decided it would be better if we found another home for Bella and Asher (the cats). We have been looking for well over a month and today were able to place them. Even though we didn't have them for a super long time, it didn't make it any easier saying goodbye. And it was hard on the kids, Shelbi especially. It was almost like reliving everything with Tristan again. Sure there were times when they did things that made me mad, but I still loved them. And the house is strangely empty and I'm still crying....even though I know it was the right thing to do. A lot of me feels like a complete failure (on a happy note I mentioned this earlier and Gavin looks at me as he lays upside down on my bed and says, "You're not a failure, Mom! You're a winner!"). How did I get so lucky to have such a great kid?